I'm so Scared but I don't Show it.

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I am just a little girl

Lost in the moment

I'm so scared

But I don't show it

I'm only 16. I'm 16 and yet I lose sleep over philosophizing. I want to know the meaning of my life. I want to know why I'm here. I want to know which path I should take. I think about these things all the time. I want an answer, some kind of sign that tells me everything. I want to know all of it when the truth is, I dont even know what I want, or what my dreams are.

I keep questioning the same things after I realise there's no point questioning. After I understand that it just is. No explanations, nothing. Quite often, after reasoning with myself that we shouldn't set life goals so that we dont fall into the trap of complacency, I start thinking about life goals and dreams. It's an annoying cycle. But the worst part is, I think I need it. I need to subject myself to such complicated questions because it just makes me think out of the box.. Gives me a view on things.

I started thinking about these things [again] after I saw that photo, above. It looks so carefree and.. happy :) The blurred background makes it seem like they've lost the world in their little bubble, all they have is each other, and that's all they really want or need. Their happiness is found in holding hands and laughing. I want that. I want to be able to just hold someone's hand and laugh as if the world is a huge bubble of joy. :)