Thursday 16 May 2013

Headlights pointed at the dawn





You wake up to an intolerable summer heat, a thin layer of sweat filming your skin like dried up glue. A dusty ceiling fan lazily spins overhead, threatening to break down any second now. You don’t know what day it is, but you know it’s July. It’s the pinnacle of summer and you’ve spent the last three weeks driving cross-country in your car with the beautiful girl sleeping beside you.

It’s been a blur of old towns, cheap motels, bland dinners and cold beers, but it’s the most fun you’ve had in possibly your whole life. How did it start again? You drove to the end of your city, and decided that you were bored and didn’t want to turn back yet. And now you’re here, one hundred miles away, sweating and dizzy from the heat, but unbelievably happy.

Today will be the same as every other day, but completely different in itself. You will lay in bed until she decides she’s slept enough- sometimes you wake up to her all dressed up, itching to get out of the motel and go on adventures. On other days, she lies in bed until 4PM and needs to be dragged out from under the sheets. Once you’re in the car, you drive north until you reach another town, a new one. And you look around to see if you like it, and if you do, you stay there. If you don’t, you keep on driving. 

You’ve been to too many sleepy towns through dusty roads. You want beaches and she wants forests, but you never seem to reach them no matter how far you drive. That’s how it’s been for the past 3 weeks, and that’s how it’ll be for the rest of the journey. But what does it matter? You don't need salt air or warm winds to prove that you're having the time of your life when you have a girl who's willing to run away with you to explore the country. There are no conversations quite like those in a car, there's no sex quite like that in a motel, and there's no love quite like one in the summer. And this is it, definitely, this is happiness, and you will feel it even until you reach the end of the country and have no choice but to turn around and go back home.

13 comments:

Liz said...

This is so beautiful and true. I need to travel around like ordinary people need air.

Anonymous said...

Why "chasingvans"? :)

Joanna said...

A long story involving me and a friend chasing a van :)) I've been thinking about changing it, though.

Anonymous said...

Great entry, as always. :) A random adventure to nowhere in particular has always held a certain romantic aspect that other forms of travel simply don't. I've always wanted to just drop everything and go on a crazy trip with no plan!

Anonymous said...

I read all your entries. Sean de Dios brought me here. I think I love you!

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog for a while and I'm happy that you are posting more frequently again! This entry is a great addition to your collection. I look forward to more posts from you! :)

Joanna said...

Sean de Dios?! How does he even know my blog :)) that's so random!

And thank you, other anon! I'm happy, too. :)

Anonymous said...

Words cannot even explain how beautiful your blog is..

i read everything and can i just say you've managed to say everything i'm feeling right now? it's like were secretly inside my mind. It's amazing. i couldn't help but tear up though, as i read your recent entries.
Right now, i'm at my lowest of lows, but it makes me happy to know that someone feels/felt the same way.

Thanks for inspiring me to write down what i feel as well, Joanna. It really helped :)

P.S. Please write a book

Joanna said...

WHY ARE YOU SO SWEEEEEEEET :(
I'm so happy you feel this way! I feel so guilty that i havent posted anything recently but something is in the works, i promise!!
and i dont have the patience for a book!! :)) maybe someday .....

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