Feel your heart beat in and out of time.

Hovering on the edge
of newly found depression
teetering too close
to the endless pit
a haze of blue
slithers into my mind

Impromptu threats,
tainted with anger
and lust for excitement
I'm afraid.

The sadness, fear,
fills me up
til i explode
into tears

fat, salty droplets
of misery
coming more frequently
this is like the last time
a place I dont
want to revisit

empty existence,
a feeling im new to
no purpose, no meaning,
to my days.

i feel the urge
to try and cut,
seek answers in
a metal blade

Counting down
the days til
I can
escape.